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10.27.2006 i used to be able to cry myself to sleep. but tonight, it seems impossible. after tossing and tearing for an hour, i decided i needed to vent. so after attempting to clear my bowels, here i am - back, staring at this screen. i don't know what to do with myself. what happens when you get disappointed with friends? does that make them less than friends, maybe acquaintances? but if they become acquaintances, they can't hurt you as much as friends can, can they? so if i presume i've been hurt by friends, does that still make them my friends? i appreciate when the class gets together, as much as most of them are not making an effort to stay. people always seem to have more friends, better friends, than the old friends. and needless to say, these old friends get the least time. so i act nice and civil; i can't help but put on a smile. because i do enjoy the moment. but admitting that is no use, because nobody cares if i get stabbed a million times as long as a gathering happens. they say we should get together more often, but i don't see why they don't. ironically, at this point in time, i remember how we used to be. and how, on that faithful day, i skipped class to run away from it all. and how painful it felt, to be cheated over and over again. this time, i'm not the one walking away. saturday's halloween, and i don't know what to do. 00:03 / and blackened tears fell with mine // |
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